Wow! I am so tired of doing this.

It is so boring to weigh myself everyday and then come down to my computer and write down what my weight is- especially since it doesn't change and I am not having much luck. I hope that things will get better when I finish the flax seeds. I am getting a lot of exercise by biking and playing hockey and I guess I doing mindful eating, but I couldn't say for sure. It was stopwatch eating and I found that too cumbersome. So now I count to 80 between bites and I am such a space cadet that I can't even count to eighty if the TV's on. My weight is 212.5 pounds today and that is down half a pound, but I think what I mean about mindful eating is that I am aware that I am hungry and I am aware that I am not hungry. And before I wasn't aware; I just ate all the time.

I am 213 pounds today.

I have gained one pound in the past three weeks so clearly what I am doing is not working. I have backed off from stopwatch eating and what I do now is count to eighty between bites; it is a lot easier. I don't have to worry about remembering to press the stopwatch before and after. I am eating more slowly; that is the main thing.

I gained more weight and I gained an inch today

Yesterday must have been a bad one. I have really hurt my body from doing too much actual moving of junk that I have to throw out from my basement and I am rather sore. I have these strange ideas that taking Advil makes my weight go up and I did take Advil. But mostly I think that my weight and my waistline increase because of flax. That stuff is really fattening. Once I finish it, I won't buy it again. I'll let you know if my weight decreases.

I don't understand what's happening to me

I think I'm looking fitter, but my weight continues to rise. It is now 212 pounds.

My weight is going up (211.5 pounds), but my waist is shrinking.

So put that in your pipe and smoke it.

I'm 210 pounds today

So…I lost a pound and a half since yesterday. Wow! That's a lot. I hope it continues. But I've only lost a total of two pounds in two and a half weeks so I am not losing weight too fast that's for sure. I am getting fitter. I am getting better. And the most important thing is that I'm not overeating. Stop watch eating is really important to me. The place that I feel the most pressure to eat fast is in a restaurant. I only have this life; it's important that I savour it.

Avoid flax

It's fattening. I gained a pound today. I know most of these changes come from water retention or at least it's water weight. I am not happy that my weight is going up. I can't wait until I finish my flax and then I will never buy it again. When I bought it, I bought it because it had omega 3's, but I had no idea how many calories it has. Now, I just want to finish it and never buy it again. I also will never buy chia seeds again although they are delicious. Same reason. I may be gaining weight because of weight lifting. I am losing inches and that is the main thing. My belly is still too big which is good because I have another 40 pounds to lose or at least 20.